Hey guys! I kind of went into a weird direction with my post yesterday, but I really felt like I needed to share my anxiety struggles with you all. It may seem sort of insignificant to you, but it is anything but for me. To finally have my anxiety under control once and for all, after all those years of being a prisoner to my own mind, has been absolutely life changing for me!! I decided that a life altering experience was worthy of a post. Today I will be back to talking about all the things that have happened over the past week in the chaotic Heltsley Household!
Our little Bently hit the one month mark on Sunday! I have a love/hate relationship with Sundays because that is the day that I do all my catching up with housework and getting everything prepared for the week ahead. It is also the only day off that we get all week, since Jayson works for 10hrs on Saturdays now. Sundays are when we make our family memories whether it is taking the kids out of the house and going somewhere fun or sitting on the couch together watching movies and eating snacks. This Sunday we went grocery shopping, then we did the latter for the remainder of our day. This week kicked off Dakoda’s first full week of school. I also have a 9 year old boy, Bryott, who gets dropped off here by his mom at 6am and gets on and off the bus with Dakoda. While I did take time off from babysitting while Bently was in the NICU, I took Bryott back on the first day of school since I had to get Koda on and off the bus anyway. I have been watching Bryott for a little over a year now, along with his 3 year old little sister, Addie. I took an extra week off from watching her so I could get Bently settled and try to get into some sort of routine with him and the boys before adding another child to the mix. Since Addie isn’t in school yet, she’s here all day, every day during the week. Her first day back here was on Monday. I was a little worried that it was going to be too much for me to handle just yet, but it turned out to be a lot better than I had imagined! She listens very well and helps out as much as she can. On Monday night, Bently slept 6hrs straight overnight!! I was a little worried about letting him go that long without eating, even though he clusterfeeds for about 4.5 hours straight before bed, which usually ends up being around 10pm. On Tuesday, Jayson had an interview for a better position within the company he works for. It would mean he gets a company truck (which will save us a ton in gas money since the he can use the company fuel card as well), a raise and a better insurance plan. Fingers crossed that he will get the position! If not, there is always next time, and the next open position would probably keep him a lot closer to home rather than an hour or two away. Tuesday night, Bently did NOT sleep through the night at all! We were up basically the entire night. His nose was stuffy and he couldn’t breathe with a Binky in his mouth, which means he couldn’t sleep. I attempted to use the bulb syringe to clear his little nose out, but the one I had was too big for his tiny nostrils! It was a very long night for me! Luckily, Bently had a wellchild visit Wednesday morning. He was up to 6lb 4oz!! That is a gain of a total of 1lb 6oz just since he has been home! I asked his pediatrician about his stuffy nose and she assured me it wasn’t a cold or anything. She suggested I get saline drops for him, which I did, along with a smaller bulb syringe. I also asked her if it was ok to let him sleep at night instead of waking him every 3 hours to eat. She said that would be absolutely fine since he is gaining well and eats a lot more than the minimum recommended. After the appointment, we got big bro off of the bus. Dakoda had a guilty smile on his face the minute he stepped off. I asked him what he did and, after a little protest, he informed me that he got his first girlfriend. 😣 Her name is Kayla and they’re in the same class and ride the same bus. They also hold hands. Lord, help me!!! I am not ready for all that just yet!! LOL. I hope she doesn’t break his heart! He has been excited about going to school this year, which is a drastic change from the last 3 years, so maybe it isn’t such a bad thing? After h gushed all about his new girl for a while, we proceeded to do our usual nightly routine: homework, dinner, baths, tv, then bed. Bently slept so much better on Wednesday night with a clear nasal passage! As a matter of fact, he slept another 6 hours straight! From 10pm until 4am. 4am is a little early but I had plenty of time to feed him, pump, enjoy a few cups of coffee and hang out with Jayson for a few minutes before he went to work Thursday morning. Later that morning, I realized that I was in dire need of some preemie formula. I can not keep up with how much milk Bently needs, so we mix his bottles with half formula and half breast milk most of the time. Since Addie was back and we HAD to have the formula, I had my first outing to the grocery store with Bently and Addie on my own. I seriously felt so incredibly accomplished that we all made it through the store and back home in one piece!!! Both kids were pretty worn out after that and actually took naps at the same time! I was able to get some cleaning done and post on my blog while they slept! After the boys got home from school, they both did their homework without a fight, so they were awarded coveted PlayStation 3 time together, which I usually allow them to do every Thursday, as long as they’re good all week. After Bryott and Addie were picked up, I made dinner as usual and we waited for Jayson to get home so we could eat as a family. Eating as a family is mostly a joke anymore, since Bently apparently always knows when its dinnertime and the exact second that I sit down to eat. Cue the hungry “squeak” he lets out every time I finally sit down in front of my plate, without fail. Even if he just finished eating, he must be entertained right this very second!! We always make it work one way or another, though. Besides, Jayson enjoys the time he is able to spend with him while he is wide awake. From roughly 530pm right up until bedtime are Bently’s prime hours. This has been the best time for bathing him and tummy time. He stays awake, alert and hungry pretty much every night during that time frame, and last night was no exception. Lucky for me though, staying up that long just before bed helps him to sleep for a longer period during the night, which is what happened again last night. He has slept 6 hours straight three nights this week! I hope it stays that way! We got pretty lucky with Dakoda sleeping through the night, starting at about a month and a half old and he has been a great sleeper ever since. It would be amazing if Bently follows in his footsteps!! That’s about all I’ve got for this week, so until next Thursday, have a wonderful week!